My Weight Loss Journey: Weigh In Day

Weighed in today. 174.8 lbs. 2.6 lb gain. OUCH. I celebrated the news with a chocolate mint coffee and key lime donut from dunkin donuts. Well actually I just wanted both. The gain was no surprise, so I can’t complain really. I’ll do better next week!

My Weight Loss Journey: The Day of Reckoning Is Almost Upon Me

Weigh in tomorrow. No way it’s gonna be a lose, but that’s all my fault and not even remotely hard to understand why. At least that’s less frustrating than a gain in a week where I’ve been on point. I worked out on Monday, skipped Tuesday but at least did a lot of walking, and worked out this morning for 40 minutes. I plan on working out tonight, partly because my gym is showing “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest” in their movie room and I’ve never seen it. I may not be able to catch it at the beginning though, so maybe I’ll just watch the rest of Pride & Prejudice (which I watched the beginning of this morning). I’ve seen that one, but I love it. I digress.

I feel good that I’ve been working out and I do feel more energized and healthier already and it’s only been 2 work outs. I need to keep it up. Seriously, audible and downloading movies to my iPad have saved me. I can do the relaxing activities (reading, watching tv) I would be doing otherwise, only at the gym! I have a desk bike I still need to put together in my apartment (yeah, I’M LAZY), so once I get that all set up, maybe I’ll start playing video games while biking. Anything to trick myself into getting extra exercise, right? So in terms of weight loss this week, I have most likely failed (unless I lose 5 lbs in one day…. Which I don’t want to do…) but overall I think it’s been successful in terms of my health. My unhealthiness inspired me to get back in the gym. WIN

My Weight Loss Journey: Getting Mah Ass in Gear

Weighed myself this morning. 176.2 thankfully. That’s 4 of the 8 I gained this weekend gone really easily. I can breathe a sigh of relief. I may be able to get back to 172.2 by Thursday’s weigh in. I really don’t want to gain! I ate really healthy yesterday and also earned 10 activity points, I just need to keep it up. I ended up just walking on the treadmill for an hour and ten minutes at various speeds and inclines, but that’s a start. I figure if I download a movie or tv episodes onto my iPad mini, I can just walk and watch instead of sitting on the couch and watching like I would at home. I’m going to try to do this in addition to real work outs, but even if I just stick with this, it’s something. I walked for a total of 262 minutes yesterday including my commute!! GO ME! So for reals, if I use my binge time as my incentive to add exercise to my regimen, then it actually ended up being a good thing in the end. I also read this article: http://www.shape.com/weight-loss/success-stories/16-fitness-experts-who-used-be-fat and while I think it was a little insensitive to say “used to be fat” rather than “used to be overweight or unhealthy”, the article itself inspired me. If they can get in shape and become personal trainers and fitness experts, why can’t I? I used to be in amazing shape and I keep mourning that I never will be again. BUT I WILL BE. I WILL BE BETTER

My Weight Loss Journey: Week 7 Weigh In

So after a horrible sunburn, ankle injury, and food poisoning this week, it was hard to keep on track. Last week I was 174.8, this week… 173.6!! That is the LOWEST weight I have been in possibly a year. I haven’t gotten below 174 in so long!! I’m unable to comfortably exercise still, but now I do feel more inspired to get into the 160s. Once I get there, I think I’ll feel so much better and more normal, like myself again. I think the sunburn is hurting my image self esteem however, because it looks disgusting and is making me hate my body right now. MY FAULT THOUGH. I think once it clears up more, I’ll be much more enthused. ANYWAY YAY MEE

My Weight Loss Journey: I Dreamed a Dream

Last night I had a weird dream. I was with a group of my current friends and this popular guy from my high school (who always seemed to like me but never made a move due to my unpopularity and weirdness) showed up. Back in high school I thought I was a total heifer, although ironically I was around 145 – 160 lbs back then which is around 15-20 lbs thinner than I am now. Anyway, in the dream, my friends and I were standing in this fun house slide type of area, standing over the top of a slide. Mike (the hs guy) came over and said “Wow… you’ve gained weight.” In the dream, I shouted at him and shoved him off of the top of the slide. When I told my friends, they started yelling at him. The last thing I coherently remember from the dream is that after I calmed down and my friends tried to make me feel better, I was explaining to my friend why I thought he had reacted that way. “He always secretly liked me in high school, and I think he was hoping I’d lose weight and grow up hot, so then he’d feel comfortable finally making a move on me. He spoke without thinking because he was so disappointed.” Don’t quite know what to think about this…

My Weight Loss Journey: Fell Off the Wagon, I’ll Wait for the Next One

So I crazily binged last night. I felt STARVING. Which again could be attributed either to the extreme consumption of alcohol on the weekend or the special lady time of the month that I am experiencing. But it was BAAAAD. Peanut butter, cheese, crackers, Cool Whip with frozen cherries, a Hershey’s cookies & cream bar that my friend left over my apartment – I ate it all! But I actually stopped before eating myself sick – usually I wouldn’t do that! So, that’s an improvement. I know I probably went about 20 points or more over my daily target, putting me 49 points over my activity and splurge points. But here’s the weird thing – I weighed myself as sort of a punishment for my sins and I was actually down from my previous post binge weight of 176.8. I am 175.8 lbs. I am sort of confused as to why this is happening. I can only assume that because I was eating SO many more calories before and the quality of the food was just about a step up from styrofoam that my body is responding to the better quality of food in a lesser (though still large) quantity. It could also be that the weight won’t show until tomorrow, I remember reading once that you have two days to burn off the food you eat. I have only worked out once this week (my Weight Watcher weeks are Thursday to Thursday), so I have plans to go to the gym with my friend tonight. Hopefully she won’t try and flake out as she is staying at my apartment and that would leave me in an awkward situation. I’m afraid if I don’t work out, I’ll have a gain for my weigh in tomorrow! I’m going home for the weekend for my mother’s birthday/Father’s day, so that will either be a good or bad thing. Good in the way that I won’t be drinking, bad in the way that we’ll probably go out to eat. I really, REALLY need to stay on track better. I have a wedding in around 60 days and I’d like to realistically be about 10-15 lbs lighter by then. I need to work out more!! WHY IS IT SO HARD?!?! I usually try to work out in the morning or else I just won’t go, but it’ll be hard to tomorrow morning since my friend will be there. If I get her to work out tonight, I doubt she’ll be into the idea in the morning. I suppose I’ll just have to do a video or something in my bedroom while she sleeps – that is if she lets me sleep enough tonight! I’m excited for the weigh in tomorrow simply so I can kind of start over, with new points and a new chance to do better. That’s something I love about the program- even when you fall, you really can get right back on that wagon.